What We Write... How We Heal
I read somewhere that most people who write journals often end up writing about the same thing over and over again. I may be very guilty of this offense. I've begun the process of typing up my Moleskine notebooks, and have become fully conscious of the cyclical patterns in them (the picture below is an example of the last couple of years worth). This could feel like an exercise in patience or a colossal waste of time. There are some bright moments, to be sure, but most of us who write for self-examination/healing know deep inside that most of what we write is both repetitive and in some ways useless. Yet, something keeps pushing us to do it, to put pen to paper and finish notebook after notebook. It is not hypergraphia, or at least I do not think so, but the desire to write is real, albeit inconsistent from time to time. This whole thing is a careful balance between desire, discipline and avoiding the call (to write), and the process can lead to inactivity and frustration. I'm okay with it, or at least I think I am.